Am I going Mad? ;)

when lights off,
my silence laughs,
the whole night,
i can't fight.

i want sleep,
but your thoughts flip,
my peace aside,
it's not right.

i need rest,
and you happily slept,
in my mind,
its a crime.

my patience kills,
that after pills,
i am still awake,
for God sake.

am i a fool?
or your memories rule?
now they seem,
my only dreams.

my mind's numb,
but i will overcome,
the one who's near,
my only fear.

and i won't quit,
until you hit,
at your moves,
i can't lose..